“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the
Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.” James 1:17
The word translated “perfect”
in this verse is the Greek Teleios, used to describe something that has achieved
or reached its goal, objective, or purpose. When I read that this morning my mind went to
Kyson, my unborn baby who never made it to what we would consider perfection or
completion here on earth. A miscarriage
is far from what most people would call a perfect gift. Losing a baby is heart breaking and leaves a
void. Yet, it can be looked at in a
different light. The child, made in
God’s image, knit together in my womb for a time, the child I watched on the
ultrasound screen jump, reach out his arms, open his hand and show me his
finger, open his precious little mouth, the child I saw life within, the tiny
flickering of a heart beat, that child is a gift. Oh, but how can I come to the place to call a
deceased child a good and perfect gift?
Only by the grace of Jesus! A perfect gift, having achieved or reached
its goal, objective, or purpose… This
child’s purpose was to live in my womb for three months and then spend eternity
bringing praise to the Savior in heaven.
I was chosen to be this child’s mother, not for a few months, but for
eternity. It is only in this light, the
light of knowing that my child, the fruit of the love between my husband and
me, is before the very throne of God, beholds His glory, brings praise to His
name for all eternity, only in that light that I see that this child is a good
and perfect gift. We are not promised a
tear-free, pain-free life; actually we are promised that there will be trials,
but that doesn’t mean that the trials cannot bring gifts. These gifts are from the Father of
lights. He in Himself is good. He is love.
He does not change. So while it
may be hard to be thankful for the miscarriage, I am thankful for my
child. My child is now completely
perfect and beholds the majesty of Perfection.
Someday I will partake of this perfection as well, and today I will be
grateful for the gifts of each of my children, Luke, Hope, Lydia, Timothy and
Kyson, my three that I am blessed to hold today, physically love, and those two
that are held by the Father and loved in my heart.
